This is definitely an “it takes all sorts” kind of war. It’s a fact that the enemy propaganda and academic papers rate me as one of the most troublesome “QAnon promoters”, of which I can be appropriately pleased. Yet I have partied hard, and misbehaved thoroughly… so would be totally unsuitable for any senior office or public servant role.
If I had to confess all my sins for a security clearance, I would ask to bring a sleeping bag, as it might take a while. I wouldn’t last long in the formal military, and can’t hold down any regular job. Never any victims, just ordinary Wildean vices, so no meaningful scandals to uncover.
I suppose the task of breaking the matrix needs wayward misfits who have no value for respectability. Some of the untold stories are pretty wild. I have seen more angles on our society than my academic contemporaries with conventional lives. Has softened my judgemental desire, given me more compassion and appreciation for true diversity and dignity of all.
Party in darkness (Doing things that others would find detestable), goes bad (Learn the error of your ways, but still have the dark thoughts in your mind), see better light (Understanding the error and try to fix it), do good (Understanding with others, that we are not perfect, but being compassionate on another level than most by accepting our past).
I think all of us anons have done the same, you're the only one giving admittance to it, while not exposing details.
I may have not hit your darkness (Sin), but I have been there and done my fair share as well.
I hope you are not beating yourself up about it. Keep moving forward. No level of remembrance or damages will change anything from the past. Though, I need not have you remember this, as you are an articulate genius and what you are saying, thinking and doing is far beyond my understanding, knowing so little about you.
You've been on fire today, good repentance strengthens us all.
