I have written before about living with an HIV diagnosis: https://newsletter.martingeddes.com/p/the-joy-of-death — and it's an ongoing frustration taking pills (and having to worry about running out of them) when I don't know if the condition even exists, whether they do me any good or harm, whether the disease (if it's real) could be easily cured, or whether I should just abandon treatment and try living as healthily as I can.

There are so many conflicting opinions, and I just don't have the expertise, energy, or motivation to pick through it all. Allegedly I am "undetectable" and therefore "untransmissable", but that could be as valid as your Covid jab's "benefits". I don't trust the pharma companies or doctors, but from a socio-sexual point of view I can at least claim to be adhering to the necessary regime to not be a threat to others.

For a long time I found this world rather burdensome, so didn't give a fig about looking after myself; longevity was actively unwanted.

I am at the "mercy" of pharma as well. Advanced Crohn's. Had another surgery last month because of it and now they are trying to force more poison on me. Praying the medbeds and cures come thru ASAP. Too many of us out here being tortured by pharma 🙏❤️ God have mercy on us all

I just ran across a post that mentioned how castor oil can help treat Crohn’s disease. Sorry I don’t have a link to the post.