VK warned that anons would end up with PTSD, and it seemed a bit overblown at the time. We're still not through all this, and I can feel that I have real heath problems with long term stress and anxiety. I have chronic injuries from repeated exposure to traumatic situations (esp family, kids at risk, and betrayals of trust, psychopathic encounters). I am not fully functioning any more; I lose focus, I freeze up, I can't even look at stuff that is visually distressing and involves phsyical harm. My ears are ringing. I wake up with all kinds of stuff racing around my head. Being around normies exhausts me very quickly. Being around the awake keeps stirring up my worries. Being alone is painful but lets me regulate my activity to my energy. The hard bit is not being up to doing much in terms of writing and photography. I can do bursts when I am in my better state. The costs of dealing with 2019/2020/2021 are all coming due. Non-linear war gives you non-conventional war wounds.
Wow, we all seem to be in the same boat. Some days are great others are not so good. I manage by not allowing others to decide my schedule. I get up when I want. My favorite past time is playing in the farm, pulling up weeds and singing to the bees, birds etc. My boyfriend tells me he's never met anyone who love to play in dirt like I do. The farm is my office. Days when I feel tired, I just stay in bed and meditate. We have to find our own place of comfort and don't allow others to distract us. Hang in there Anons!
