Costs of this war for me:
- One lost career and associated time investment
- Failed business start-up
- Two major betrayals by those close to me
- One smaller broken boundary (but painful)
- Lots of estranged friends
- A great deal of family time foregone
- "Press" public reputation only just above axe murderer
- Low income, no savings, no pension
- A lot of psychological distress
Would do it all again without hesitation. The gains include self-worth and dignity, true loving relationships, participation in greatest endeavours, historic opportunities to be creative and apply gifts, personal growth, spiritual understanding, endless new knowledge, fabulous co-workers, new skills, crazy stories, ...
I never go to sleep with regrets or a sore conscience.
The costs are tremendous. I guess they've been targeting us from the very beginning, doing everything they can to break us. They very nearly succeeded in my case.
- Pushed to consider suicide at the teenage years
- After that, walked 25 years alone. I was foretold that this would happen at the teenage years
- A number of ideas and inventions stolen over the years
- "Welfare" steals about 2/3 to 3/4 of my labor
- Lost majority of friends for speaking out and speaking the truth in the last 7-8 years
Not poor, but not rich either. The strange thing is that I think 2023 has still been one of the better ones! The vibes are improving
