Costs of this war for me:
- One lost career and associated time investment
- Failed business start-up
- Two major betrayals by those close to me
- One smaller broken boundary (but painful)
- Lots of estranged friends
- A great deal of family time foregone
- "Press" public reputation only just above axe murderer
- Low income, no savings, no pension
- A lot of psychological distress
Would do it all again without hesitation. The gains include self-worth and dignity, true loving relationships, participation in greatest endeavours, historic opportunities to be creative and apply gifts, personal growth, spiritual understanding, endless new knowledge, fabulous co-workers, new skills, crazy stories, ...
I never go to sleep with regrets or a sore conscience.
I know how you feel. My life is not what it was and yet I am at peace. I could never understand this feeling that I've had since such a young age. A feeling of waiting, but waiting for what? I would mention it but it was not understood by others. Now I know it was for this time. Grateful for my AU friends. Martin you are appreciated and I loved beyond measure. A truly noble soul you are Martin! 💖
