I feel a bit emotionally paralysed at the moment. Never know when sudden change might be launched on the world so feel unsafe travelling about. Can’t launch myself into any kind of normal work project to earn a living. Unable to focus on anything long enough to write an article or essay.
For me it’s the point where it’s unfair to ask those who did the right thing to sacrifice more to protect those who did the wrong thing. A shift in state/paradigm of society required soon. The only reasons to delay are rescuing kids and containing ruin risks.
If I put a meal in the slow cooker today then I have had a successful day. My bar for accomplishment is very low at present. A walk is a bonus. Have given everything I have to give, and now I am energetically void. Like being trapped in a prison of unbounded patience.
Exhausted and waking after 5 hours sleep. Heart will not like that mid day. I am surrendering expectations while standing in faith. That is all I can do. The duality has drained me. My sleepers have taxed me to the bone. Going to try to put more energy into soul preservation.
The added duty of my animals, helping my mom & aunt along with regular responsibilities have helped mostly, until drained, then I pray for help.
Praying for God to heal us…
mind, body & soul.
Enjoy your day Martin.
