It would be nice to “restock” my inventory of understanding by spending time reading books and watching videos. I find it close to physically impossible right now. I am so burnt out from years of information processing overload and general war stress that such sustained focus for study is beyond me.
I find that I freeze up when I try to engage with ordinary tasks like sorting protest photos, like a horse that refuses to jump a high fence. Just want to stare out of the window and watch the clouds go by. Doing anything resembling a structured “job” is unthinkable. The wait for justice is weighty indeed.
The “fix” seems to be staying away from every negative influence and source of low vibes. No toxic people, no hard-edged cities, no dark media. Withdraw from the insanity, and stay in proximity to others who continue to work on themselves and seek solace in beauty.
We must be in the world but not of it. My life has provided many, many opportunities to practice inner detachment. Inner detachment does not mean we are not compassionate and lack empathy. I have not been able to read or focus much on external nonsense. I refuse to be pulled into the matrix! Martin, if you feel this way, your heart is counseling you to pull away from those things and 'be'. One can find great pleasure in sitting quietly, savour each bite of your food, sip of tea, soak in the tub etc ..whatever. That being said I do look so forward to your postings. But if you need a break from that, so be it. You have it more together than you may realize! 💖
