At this point the desire for resolution isn’t impatience, but illness. The endless stress and relentless uncertainty is making me sick. There is only so much you can do to mitigate it; the social, economic, cultural, spiritual, legal world around you has an unavoidable impact. A short fake nuclear war might paradoxically be just the holiday I need!
I was like that two years ago. Since then I 've come to terms with the fact that I am not in control of anything except for myself. The inner detachment that I feel and ensuing happiness is much appreciated! I endevour to live on a moment by moment basis. If something comes forward to throw me off I repeat : circumstances don't matter, only state of being does. This state of mind feels like when I view/experience life around me that we truly are all watchings movie. That being said, I will be happy to see end of this one!
