FIRST OF ALL, Please accept my condolences for you loss. My heart hurts to read your words. I feel your pain just reading what you wrote. Grief is a personal journey. It is a road that only you can take. Unfortunately, only you can take this journey. You take as much time as you need to heal your heart. It is the price we all pay for loving someone with all our heart. Give yourself a break, it has only been a month. This is the timeframe that you take one day at a time or if that is too much a time chunk, you take one hour or minute at a time. Don't let anyone try to tell you otherwise. I have found the ones that say things about "isn't it time you stop grieving..." are the ones who have never lost a person they love. After I lost my husband, I would inner peace with prayer and I found a grief support group. The people in the grief support group legitimized my feelings and made me realize just how many people out there are uncomfortable with talking about death...