I can't imagine what you are going through. I pray for you and send love and strength frequencies. With my loved ones who have passed before me I try to think they have partially stayed with me. I eat what they like, go on adventures, read, cook, dance, go on drives, movies etc. Like they get to experience through me. It's a tiny comfort in times of loss for me. 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼 take one minute at a time.