It is interesting to me how little we discuss the fact that we are being psychologically tortured (both the asleep and the awake). The MKUltra "up is down, black is white" fake narrative is designed to demoralise, humiliate, and break you via submission. Those who submit then want others to fail, legitimising their weakness, cowardice, and foolishness. Your closest social and familial bonds get weaponised against you.
This forces you to protect yourself, and withdraw into a circle of those who are truly loving and caring, with self-care at its centre. The urge can be to become a recluse, neglect yourself in the hope of a uncontroversial demise, or engage in suicidally dangerous activities to get off the planet quickly. I suspect that acknowledging that we are being tortured and witnessing it for each other is figural to managing the pain and healing the trauma.
It is the betrayal by those who put children in the way of harm (for selfish goals) that hurts most.
Wish I didn't know now, what I didn't know then. ~ Bob Seger
One of my favorite lines.
'Knowing' is almost an affliction of its own. Thoughts of self harm out of pure mental exhaustion that leads to tangible bad habits is real.
This passage you wrote, hit me hard.
Love to you Martin, may we all keep pushing forward, also ' knowing ' we are the good guys.
