I have to remind myself that the people still paying me on Substack while I take a break need me to be well more than they need me to urgently write. The multiplying traumas of this war have inflicted real damage on me, to which I have added plenty of self-inflicted wounds. I would prefer to be visibly productive, but the work right now is to sever unhealthy places, relationships, and habits. Takes all I have got, and still feel wobbly.
Whatever my wastes and woes, humanity has had a pretty reasonable deal out of me for 5 years. What I have had to do is very abnormal, and there is a point where you degrade rather than develop from being stressed and stretched. Have plenty to say when the time is right. Need to stabilise myself and my living conditions before turning the creative output back on.
My crazy + world crazy = too much crazy.
🙏😇😘KNOW NO MATTER WHAT OR WHO IS THERE OR NOT THERE FOR YOU GOD STANDS WITH YOU EVERYDAY ALL DAY AND WHEN YOU CAN'T STAND AND MUST REST REST IN HIS LOVING ARMS AND HE WILL CARRY YOU ONWARD AND UPWARD WHILE YOU STAND AGAIN FOR YOURSELF AND THEN FOR OTHERS ...... THERE IS NOTHING LIKE GODS LOVE GODS PEACE GODS REST AND GODS WISDOM .. LOVE YOU BROTHER
