I have to remind myself that the people still paying me on Substack while I take a break need me to be well more than they need me to urgently write. The multiplying traumas of this war have inflicted real damage on me, to which I have added plenty of self-inflicted wounds. I would prefer to be visibly productive, but the work right now is to sever unhealthy places, relationships, and habits. Takes all I have got, and still feel wobbly.
Whatever my wastes and woes, humanity has had a pretty reasonable deal out of me for 5 years. What I have had to do is very abnormal, and there is a point where you degrade rather than develop from being stressed and stretched. Have plenty to say when the time is right. Need to stabilise myself and my living conditions before turning the creative output back on.
My crazy + world crazy = too much crazy.
This week, if the sun shines, I want you to face the sun and let the light shine on your face. Feel the heat and warmth of the rays. That always makes me feel the healing power of GOD. That and water. You're going through a lot of changes. Magnesium will help you right now. I call it my wonder supplement. Just focus on Martin right now. Surround yourself with healing music or sounds of nature. Pray. I too am dealing with anxiety and emotional changes. I realize that for so many years I have been nurturing and caring for my family and my own needs have been pushed aside. It hits you in the face when you go through such trying times and your heart is hurting. These times certainly are trying humanity's soul. Many times I have felt on edge and don't know how to fix it. Lately this singer Victor Thompson calms my spirit. He voice seems to melt my anxiety away. Be patient with yourself right now and just focus on you Martin. We're not going anywhere. Sending love Patriot.
