Biggest mistake I made in this war… thinking that I could defer addressing my own sh*t until the stress of the public awakening was done. The spiritual battle starts inside of you; trying to serve two masters eventually rips you up. Am a bit of “walking wounded” at the moment, lots of overdue personal change to face. Have to cut ties to all people and things that bind me to the dysfunctional worldly ways. I was waiting for the outer world to do the work for me, and it failed miserably. Now it is harder because the upheaval is near. Never too late to repent and seek a new start.
Introspection is a garden to weed and tend, Martin. You'll never be 'done'.
A neglected garden often hides all sorts of quiet treasures previously hidden by a veil of (less than you may fear) rank weeds.
Each day new information clears the focus of your world/self/spiritual views. Occasionally the image resolves into something you didn't expect and you have to bin large portions of your comfortable complacencies Other times the focus shows you something you've always known but hadn't acknowledged.
A new perspective sometimes reveals more than a green landscape with 2 articles of white laundry on a clothesline and a reddish brown canoe slipped on a the bank of a blue river.
