O my goodness, this is exactly how I feel! Stuck in limbo. My old life ended in so many ways and I can never go back to functioning like that, all these inner changes happened, so much emotional and spiritual work, the isolation was incredibly fruitful, but it is so painful to see the beautiful world that lies ahead and yet we can't touch it or enter it. And it's impossible for me to engage with the old world, I just can't 'feed the beast' anymore with my energy! Just think how wonderful it will be when all of us are released into the world we were made for, manifesting outwardly the beauty and love that was born and nourished on the inside during this forced hiatus we are experiencing! Thank you for expressing this so eloquently!

You said the magic word
Energy
"just can't 'feed the beast' anymore with my energy!"
It has become so clear in this process the real value of our energy, its power
We used it to survive for so long
Unaware it was being harvested
Now we can't go back
We can't stand the abuse anymore
Some has still to compromise a Little
All this power we have inside, this love actually, thats what it is, we want to start to live now
No more surviving
The leveling up was, still is mostly about that: mastering the good use of our energy. learning how to harness it and direct it where we want it to go
We started with ourselves
Loving ourselves
Imagine the moment we will share that love
We already do that on AU
Plus it feels we still have so much to discover about our real power
Thank you for your kind words🙏

I look back at how different my life was before 2019 compared to now. The wife and I were building a house, full of hope and realizing our dreams. Now the house sits unfinished, I lost my livelihood, we lost our savings, family and friends turned their backs on us because of our no vax stance. We trudge forward but there is bitterness. I might be too old to get squared away again, just hope to finish the house for her before I'm gone.

I feel you
There has to be a reason
Its tough to see it
Its beyond all that we can possibily know
To be benched like this
The dreamers, the ones that even if not awake yet fought all their lives to not fit in, to make it in a different way...
There must be something even better planned for us
There is no other explanation
We made a difference in the old world by not blending in
We will make a difference in the new one by being pioneers in this absolute paintul one way direction that is asking us to let go of control
To trust
We found a way once to be good
in a bad world
We will find it again
Born for such time as this?
You bet
Trained all our life
Know that I understand you
It sucks. Its hard
I preach to have faith to myself first
Hang in there fren❤️