The post below, from Kuntuzangpo. That's it. Believing or not, I noticed not believing is really hurting me and making me sick.
I'll force myself in denial mode, if there's a God, a "plan" or whatever, it'll be a pleasant surprise.
If not, what else do I have to lose? I already decided the state is my archenemy. I already decided political path is now pointless.
I already decided I'll preach BitCoins, Agorism, Survivalism/Off-Grid, civil disobedience and what else tools I find to break free from "their" control.
Let God answer for the children. It's his burden, not mine. All I could do for them - raise awareness, I did and will continue to do. If he allowed the fkers to win, shame on him. If that happened because he doesn't exist? Well, I'll protect those I can, that's all I can do.
I can't be more disappointed than I am. If God is real and turn out to be a jerk it'll be less disappointing than this silence, because things at least will make sense for once.