Once you see how pretty much everything is a captured or controlled op, I find there is a kind of numbness that creeps over you. Most of society and culture feels irrelevant or ridiculous. Those under the spell inhabit confined mental spaces you can’t climb back inside. Participation in everyday rituals is all done with detachment through the filter of greater perception of symbols and agendas. It’s all a whacky dream.
Describes my day pretty aptly. I can't watch movies or series any more. There are only a couple of pieces of music that I'd like to listen to. Can't really participate in most of the conversations unless it's something I can drop some crumbs. The earlier life I led seems distant. Actually, I'm mostly looking forward to evenings and getting in touch with folks and see what they've dug up everyday.
Then again, this is the only time in my life when I really know that there are others. There are others who have known something's off for a very long time. There are others who didn't conform, and who continue to search and speak the truth.
We may not be able to meet in person for some time, but rest assured, there are others. There are millions of us. It does feel like being connected to long lost sisters and brothers.
