Once you see how pretty much everything is a captured or controlled op, I find there is a kind of numbness that creeps over you. Most of society and culture feels irrelevant or ridiculous. Those under the spell inhabit confined mental spaces you can’t climb back inside. Participation in everyday rituals is all done with detachment through the filter of greater perception of symbols and agendas. It’s all a whacky dream.

or nightmare! after almost six years of seeing what is, I am worn out, desperately tired of the whole thing, and depleted of the cheerleader in me of long ago. Now I read something with a date and think that is just another kick the can down the road type of thing. I have not lost the faith but rather can no longer ride the rollercoaster if that makes any sense??