It hasn’t been like this for months…started to change after the Speaker vote

Last night awake at 10:30 then 1:15... feel like crap today... and, the Brunson case denial, is not a help either.
😔

As horrible as 2022 was for me, I would never want to imagine asking the question "how much worse could things get" because I'm sure I will find out. Good thing I have nothing left so I have nothing left to lose. Woohoo

Aye.

There are days when its easier to deal with the cr@p than others.

Feeling like the moral of Anons is not a priority right now. Having McCarthy voted in - despite the ropes they say they have put on him, then the Brunson thing... gee, feel like the left are going to laugh their heads off... and there is very little to say in response.

Normies will be harder to convert, even those leaning in our direction.

Just tired today, got less resiliency as a result. Kinda tired of the friendly fire thing...

yeah, I'm hanging on by a thread. if this is part of the "movie" the problem is. we don't have a commander who isn't behind a pen or internet in the face of someone else. can't fight a battle without a known leader and a known enemy. don't like the feeling i have ruined my life just to get played

Yes, I have issues with the 'blind fairh' concept.

We were drawn to researching, to putting what we found together with what others found... evidence based, not faith based... I'm not part of any religion, so I cannot rely on that like mind community for solace, but, I do feel stronger after talking with Anons.

Knowing I'm not alone in feeling deflated. Means I am not weak, but, I do have human reactions to adversity, of the psychological kind. 😊

absolutely, and these very "questioning" instincts are what make this group special. if we didn't have them, we would also eventually get duped. i am a believer in faith and research combined. but i would love to see a shred of something concrete right about now

Yes.

I find it hard to engage normies, when I am feeling like this - it is too easy to be deflected, too easy to be drawn into the 'trust the plan' conversations... which right now, I find hard to support.

Its hard to appear trustworthy to the unaware, when we appear to have been taken in by our own.

But, all we can do now is wait and see. I for one, have invested too much energy and time in this to abandon it now... but, I will not be trying to convert anyone, until I see something positive - that is more than a scrap, a bone... I want to see something tangible, and, sizable.

honestly, reading all the stuff that may "save us" is giving me PTSD badly. You cannot wake people up and let them suffer in between worlds

It does seem like torture.

We are supposed to have both blind faith, and the instinct to dig up information because we do not have blind faith...

This conundrum, must be resolved and soon, or those who have just come around, will drift away, because they have little to no time invested in this.

I do not know what the answer is...

yeah, agreed. for me we were asked to basically suffer ridicule, lose jobs, lose houses, lose our sanity. and now they are allowing it to look like we got played. even if we didn't. NO REWARD for those who thought they should do the right thing. NOTHING. just misery. i was way happier not getting involved in this