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There is nothing more beautiful than the way the oceane refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it's sent away ππβΎοΈ
Confession:
I went quiet on you guys, I walled off and shut you out and for that I'm sorry. π I convinced myself no one cares anyways. I have struggled for a long time now with PTSD, anxiety and depression. You wouldn't even know it because I hide it so well π
I have lied and said I'm happy when I'm not so I didn't have to feel isolated. It's a constant internal battle to be honest about when I'm in pain because in the past it's been met with abandonment. I learned to perform so I wouldn't be alone. Even if I was in anguish inside you'd never know on the outside because I bury it. Even now as I type this I can feel that same fear that people will stop talking to me because I'm not posting only good things. I'm sorry I'm so fearful about sharing my negative emotions.
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There is nothing more beautiful than the way the oceane refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it's sent away ππβΎοΈ
Working hard on it everyday, thank you for your prayers Arba it means alot to me! π€