I am noticing my mind is completely refusing to take on new "inventory" of info until there is some shifting of the old stuff. If new data doesn't contribute to reconciliation of divides with friends and family, or solve some immediately presenting real world problem, then there is zero energy for it. I just get annoyed ten seconds into any video, no matter how fascinating in principle the content is. Just don't care and don't want it.
There's only so many years you can be traumatised pretty nonstop and still function normally.
This is exactly how cognitive dissonance works.
In the field of psychology, cognitive dissonance is the perception of contradictory information, and the mental toll of it. Relevant items of information include a person's actions, feelings, ideas, beliefs, values, and things in the environment. Cognitive dissonance is typically experienced as psychological stress when persons participate in an action that goes against one or more of those things. According to this theory, when two actions or ideas are not psychologically consistent with each other, people do all in their power to change them until they become consistent. The discomfort is triggered by the person's belief clashing with new information perceived, wherein the individual tries to find a way to resolve the contradiction to reduce their discomfort.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_dissonance
