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I'm trying really hard to distract myself today by reading posts etc. cuz today is the 2 year anniversary of when my grandson took his own life, but it's just not working. We last saw him alive on 10/08/20. They came for a visit, we said our goodbyes & I love you's. He then came back out of the car, gave me another hug & "I love you." Looking back, I realized he was saying his last goodbye, & had made up his mind, little did I know that at the time. 3 days later he was gone. Every time I think of him I get a lump in my throat. I had a small sense something wasn't right, there were small signs. I can only hope & pray that he has found the light he so desperately could not find here on earth, that he had to take his own life, that he is surrounded by love & others who have passed on. Child suicides increased a LOT in 2020, but it's not talked about much. I'm not looking for sympathy here, just a reminder to talk to your kids/grand kids, or any child, it could save their life.
I am SO SORRY! My heart breaks for you and I get that feel - it will never be or feel ok. My girl developed anxiety and depression that began shortly after the lockdowns when she lost friends and had her activities cancelled (the lost friends were due to the parents refusing to let the kids play together - and in time when they relaxed only if the distanced and wore face diapers which we said no to that). She's pre-teen now - hormones going full throttle - and I lay awake some nights worrying about her. I talk with her every day (she's homeschooled - the local school district is very "woke" and she's sensitive to the covid vax shedding). I'm trying not to be a mess myself now - life has been difficult for me overall but the past 2 and a half years have been traumatizing - a collective PTSD. I call forth miracles and help/love every day. If ever we needed a miracle as a race, it is indeed now.
