I expect given my visibility there's a White Hat file on me with the title "Huge heart, personal life is a total mess, but basically honest". I never sought any kind of public presence or stage on matters of geopolitical controversy. All I wanted was for the telecoms industry to adopt the ∆Q algebra so it could model supply and demand better.
It is fun in a way being in the public eye, and having a large audience who will sort out silly requests is quite a laugh. But is also splits you, and you are always having to manage the semi-permeable wall between your private life and public presence. I really don't envy those who have "real fame"; it's not the easy existence that adulting fans imagine.
I have never made claims to good behaviour, so no hypocrisy involved. People think they know you from what you put out, but it's inevitably an edited image that lacks a lot of shadow, struggle, and suffering. It's not just the fall of the MSM, but a culture of celebrity and idols too.
if they had a file on me id be called op shithead