I am learning that winning the outer war cannot be done without also fighting the inner war. To be "all in" on the public fight for what is righteous cannot be done without being "all in" on the private one, too. We cannot serve two masters, once you head down the narrow path you have to keep going, and if you try to go both ways you will end up going nowhere.
This period of waiting has been agony, but it has also brought a spiritual clarity that I previously lacked. It allows for reflection, repentance, and healing. I can look across at others to observe their parallel personal struggle without having to judge or compare. Fixing my own life and lifestyle is much harder than fighting for truth and justice.
What has made the most difference is to surround myself with others who are seeking the higher and harder way, so that I no longer normalise that which I previously embraced, accepted, or tolerated. Knowingly rebelling against what is divine makes you an enemy asset.
I am so grateful for this time of 'deep-diving' and clearing out of our own personal tunnels! I find doing the inner work to be immensely helpful when trying to 'guesstimate' where we are in the outside war. As above, so below does seem to apply. That said, I am feeling very emotional, grateful and calm today. There was a comforting stillness within and without. My husband heard in his prayer yesterday "The parasite is dead". Maybe, just maybe we are finally entering the grand finale!
