not meant to bring the vibe down, but to express how many of us may be feeling:
i have 0 drive. 0 interest in doing anything. normie stuff doesn’t interest me. i can’t even psych myself up to do the simplest things.
i’m not at all a lazy person, i work my ass off when i care. i love working with my hands and building. but there’s nothing right now that i’ve got a hand in that i can really dedicate my energy to, it’s all a facade.
i feel so useless and neutered, ‘waiting’…
SEE thing is they WANT our joy, so we don't give it to them. Been doing this shit decades, been thru so much crazy shit, but I still do what I love. THAT is the balance.