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VK i AM attempting to process why someone close, a leading scientist, can not, will not, apply logic in the face of clear facts. Simply ego, no. Knowingly? Why? How could this happen? It is easier to comprehend at a distance, not with a shared lifetime.
My heart is breaking, the words "the end won't be for everyone" are haunting. Praying for a miracle, forgiveness.
At at a higher elevation, Gratitude, for his sacrifice, for all roles must be filled.
I just want to believe it was not knowingly, it was not with malice but the pure innocent curiosity was highjacked as I still don't believe he would intentionally deceive.