Fantom, I started feeling exactly how you are feeling now a few month ago. I truly was struggling and in the hospital. THEN being a TOTAL hypocrite I gave in and did a covid test to get help. I had a minor heart attack, contracted a negative gram bacteria (k. pneumoni) that went to my kidneys, lungs and liver. I have lupus so it triggered a flare I was not in a good frame of mind and wanted to give up. So the point to all this: We are in a SPIRITUAL WAR. Satan doesn't like people messing with his evil plan and we ARE making a difference!!! HE IS ATTACKING US. GOD is winning this!! WE are winning this!! Roe vs Wade is a huge win for precious baby's that were aborted, tortured, harvested, and THEN killed. Yes, Trump has changed but he knows what he is doing! HE IS MAKING MOVES for their downfall. It's probably going to get uglier, but in the end we will ALL rejoice. Hang in there sister! We've got you!!!! WWG1WGA