I'm sorry you are going through tough times. Most of the time people ignore personal posts and i think it's because nearly if n iij t everyone here is going through some shit ir other as well.
I once posted how im a bio woman who long ago married a bio man in transition m-t-f and he (and I) had an epiphany at one point where we realized it was wrong and a mental illness. He had been on hormones but thank God never had the surgery and ge reversed it all back to normal a few years back.
i think thst story is significant because i was on tbe inside and here I'm saying how we were reformed once we dug into the Bible more (always Christians) and realized the mind control aspect.
BUT no one even replied.
Nowadays it'd be easy to do this, but nack then it was not; and we were early starters on no-vaxxjng as well, dealing with all kinds of shit from all directions.
I'm here for you if you need to talk, though im a little slow responding sometimes.
Hang in there.