I’ve been fighting with myself for way too long, I imagine I’m not the only one. doing shit that makes sense in [their] system, but things I know to be unsustainable (a miserable day to day) just to ‘survive’ and stay afloat.
conflicted as fook, scared of change.
I know I’m wrong and can’t keep this up, just don’t know how to get right.
My hubby was a Patriot, as am I - & Constitutional Conservative Christian, Texan, dog mom, digital soldier…WWG1WGA
Right there with you…my life appears so upside down to what seems “normal” to most, but has never seemed to fit me right. I haven’t worked in over two years (taking care of my late husband), but the thought of taking a job that I don’t love is soul-crushing. I’ve worked for several major corporations, and I can’t tolerate the bullshit. But God has kept my bills paid and I feel like while I’m treading water most days, I’m also in the middle of a major growth spurt! Just holding on, praying for guidance…
God's got plans for each of us. One day at a time. Hope you and yours are well.
You made me think of this;
God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
-Reinhold Neibuhr
