there are days i wake up and just cry to get the stress out. i have been doing this for 5 years now. i have been down so many rabbit hole where i would be up for 3 days straight, there times i don't even want to get out of bed. i try to smile but its fake. i have lost all friends. i am now a shut in, looking out side at a world i don't know anymore. praying every day please GOD help us bring you back into our world. looking for good change, but only seeing it getting worse.😢but i have to hold on for my family, and i want to see this to the end.🙏.