I am at that exact place of exhaustion, frustration as you are. I'm not accusing them, but some of the more recent info I have encountered has given me frustration, addiction to trying to understand and make sense of it, and exhaustion from wanting to feel protected and OK evety day. And I don't. If something happens medically, I know I can't go to the hospital, and I'm not even referring to covid. My husband still believes nothing and will not look at 1 picture or video. I am not ibterested in ANYTHING other than finding out what is happening and sharing to my small group of family via emails. My index finger should have callouses. I am feeling useless and a failure for some reason and I know I shouldn't. Has to be the enemy, and I know that. was just kicked off FB for the 9th time, third x for 30 days for sharing a new video I saw on Telegram last night about the children. But I emailed it out too. I have been a soldier in this. The Lord grabbed me last November. Tired.