Horrific. Selfishly, I feel fortunate that I just woke up. Trying to wake others is all consuming. the media has done such a good job of labeling us as "conspiracy theorists" and "radicalized". I pray the nifhtmare ends soon for the kids. I will never be the same and might lose my marriage and possibly my career over trying to wake up those around me. my husband thinks I am crazy and has started reaching kut to family and colleagues.