I'm so very sorry that you are going through that...if you ever need to talk you can mesage me...we are all hear for each other...so please dont feel you are alone...and sadly some times standing in the truth is lonely...look at what Noah went through...in todays world he would be called crazy and a conspiracy theorist....that is a really good idea to journel things...becausewe are living in live history making times right now..those that are sleeping are missing everything...we will one day have to explain to them what they missed.