When you start going down the rabbit hole sooner or later you will find something so horrible or unbelievable thet it will slap you up side the head so hard you want to quit.
It is the place where our deepest beliefs get shattered. Your mind wants to just shut it down. You want to use what you have been taught to comfort you again. It won't The only way out is through. Faith helps. It is not necessary to know it all and probably better if you don't. Question everything. Believe nothing you can't verify for yourself. Stand up for what you believe and know is true. It is the only way forward.