Retired Engineer- Anti-terrorism & blast consultant DoD & DOS. Survivor SRA, Mk-Ultra,child trafficking. Wife USMC combat veteran #Godwins
this is interesting...all true. its really hard. alone all day and night with myself for a year now. all my healing resources cut off for months. just me God and my memories. ive done so much healing. feeling so lost right now just cant go on any more
living in this pain all day every day. isolation, deprivation, memories, loss, grief. 18 years SRA in my face day in day out. nazi maskers with mo compassion or understanding. i cant wrap my brain around these heartless fearfull morons. im more than tired, ive reacher deep and deeper and deeper...last few weeks im just lettong go. God will catch me...or not.
may I recommend some healing music... youtube search for 528hz music...sit quitely and listen...close your eyes and let your thoughts flow...I woke up the next morning and my head was visibly clear..It was a phenomenon feeling..God bless..remember there are all of us out here that love you. stay strong till we get through this mess. Dont give up.. Ill send you positive prayers your way. Love you.
ive done thiis before, i have some i may give it a try. ive needed to cry for days sure that will bring it up and out. thank you so much. i just have so much grief and pain around isolation and the inhumanity of all this. i went into the ejoke thing a year ago after months of illness and 2 sinus surgeries so ive been housebound now for over a year. i have complete trust in Trump its kust the covid lickdowns have been and continue to be severe and the masks trugger the abuse memories. i got a new book CPTSD exercises so i can do my own somatotherapy here alone...just have mot been able to get into reading it. im doinf my 20 minute bikeride and working with some wool to pass the time. maybe tomorrow i can do the music and then try to read a bit...thank you again for your kindness and reaching out🙃😉🤗
