I'm right there too. Use the time to just be alone and find out more about yourself. Getting time alone in life isn't easy most of the time. It allows for deep reflection and a total reset. It may seem like an eternity but it's just a period in life provided for us to regather our thoughts. Most importantly, just realize you're not alone, you're here with all of us, we're your friends - simply reach out and I think many here would gladly show you're integral to the Awakening. It is easier for some to be alone than others for periods of time. This alone time will pass and it gives you the opportunity to set things straight in your mind and come out of the gates refreshed and ready for what is to come. Always try to think positive, everything happens for a reason, trust in and sit in the hands of our Lord. We're here for your dearest friend. God Bless you.