Jim, completely understand and all I can say is hang on it will get better. Noah? yeah? throwing camel pies at him, callin him crazy, laughing at him..As he is sliding down the hillside.. he shrugs his shoulders and says.."Sorry." No more room. Not saying we who are awake are priviledged bc I sure don't feel that right now. But being awake I can see where all this crap in DC is leading to. I've gotten acquinted with God. I don't see things in absolutes anymore. Time is not stagnant. Just know there is a reason for everything and that will made known. Hang onto any hand that's gonna help.