Lately I've had this feeling, especially when writing or listening to my christian musics. It's hard to explain. Not a feeling of suicide, or wanting to die, but rather the feeling of my soul ready to escape this 3d nightmare and ascend higher to a consciousness more deserving. I tried to explain that to someone, and they they thought I needed to be a on a watch. That's simply not the case. I know I have to wait to be called. But it's just a feeling, so hard to explain and even harder for others to grasp.