A very notable majority of male repeat violent criminal offenders and murderers in jail and prisons are victims of this shit. Why do you think they tend to kill them when locked up together with pedophiles? Vengeance rightfully comes hard for them.
I was jailed in Mesa County Co. 10 days with a guy I learned started his major career in crime by happening to see his childhood rapist walking down the road one day as he drove by when he was eventually a young man of 18. He pulled over, and beat him to death with a base ball bat on the shoulder of the road and started life out saddled with murder charges.
I never forgot your story, I do remember it often, and I hope somehow someday you find some peace, although doubtful after a now decades long life of serious crimes that included yet another murder later in life.
I can't kill like that, but wouldn't stop one from being killed for those unforgivable heinous actions.