You are going through a phase. Went through it a while back. Things changed on the inside when I went outdoors and had a shouting match, so to speak, with God. Yelled, "Why? Why did it all happen? What can we do about it?!?" I jumped around and screamed for a few minutes. Then sat down to pray and meditate. Got God's answer: "First, breathe and pray more and talk to Me like you talk to your friends. I will insure you get the answers. Make lists of your blessings; your thankfulness will carry you through, and help others; pray for them." So now, I am praying for you; and please know you are loved! Praying for your Peace of Heart and Mind, and God's Comfort for you!