I always wonder the same thing. In my case GOD gave me an angel daughter who woke me up at the age of 15. We could have both perished on 9/11 if I didn't get another job offer in 2000. I was 6 months pregnant when 9/11 happened and she also was a very high risk pregnancy. You might say she was a very feisty, strong baby who was on a mission. I always called her my Angel and her name means Gift of Hope. At age 15, she came to me crying, asking me what the Illuminati was. She heard the term on the bus. I calmed her down and promised to research which miraculously led me to Kay Griggs, George Webb, Task Force, Veronica, Field McConnell and others.
GOD wanted us awake. My daughter and I were talking about why us after taking my mom out for her birthday. It's so hard living in alternate realities as people we love. I think it's because at our core GOD made us strong and He is deep seated in our hearts. We want to live in truth and we hate human suffering. It is grace & it is AMAZING.