I hear you. I have experienced similar. I do not have an answer but I know what works for me is to evaluate whether I will feel worse if I go and there is no acknowledgement--let alone an apology--for the egregious behavior directed at me. So far, there continues to be no awareness of the level of aggression directed at me, therefore, I do not engage. When I see love, care, trust and respect, I will go back, and not a minute before. Nobody likes the messenger, and if you stood up for yourself, you are the messenger. I hope you do not give up though. God can do what we cannot. And you are not alone, even if it feels that way.