Maybe one day I will go through all these old albums with you and share my happy memories...but I will say...without ETHANG...my true and genuine smile wouldn't have been restored, my laughter, my light...so He's not using me okay...he needs help and I need him too...I need my family (soul family) to remain in my life and I don't want to just walk away from them. They aren't asking me too and I am grateful that Ethang will become part of a new chapter with me as my best friend, the dude that I can tell dirty jokes to and then when silliness really happens, I send it to ALEX...and Alex laughs...feels great that we are all laughing right?