I can relate to how you're feeling Diane.
I work in the funeral industry and this past 18 months/2 years have really taken their toll on my physical and emotional health.
Never, in the years I've worked as a Celebrant, have I officiated at the funerals of so many healthy young people, who have 'died suddenly' from heart attacks, strokes, blood clots, aggressive cancers and suicide.
It's impossible to remain detached in these circumstances, because I share the pain of every bereaved family I work with and my heart breaks with theirs 💔.
Please stay strong and try to spend time in nature, meditate with positive affirmations and most of all, cherish the time you spend with your loved ones... life is so precious 🙏💙🙏