Indeed, when you are waking up to the real world, the first thing that you are thinking is that your are becoming insane. I walked around for about a half year before I realised, that this was the truth: this evil world. These lies they told us were very convincing, and we were raised that this was all real. But is is not at all real. Its just their programming to make you obey. Start thinking for yourselfs and be creative. God gave us all we need to make this world a beautifull one. We have the power and we will and can do this with Him guiding us.