My older sister, who died of illness, often said, "It's hard to live on earth." I didn't quite understand the meaning of that. I feel it now more than enough. The words left behind by her sister have many links to the present.

Memories of her older sister before she was born.
Her friends told her to stop being born there. But she said she shook it off. I said okay. I don't know if it's the earth or my home, but I think it's both.

I wonder if I was born chasing after my old sister because she was worried. . . ?
earth without my sister. The current earth is so hard to live in that I think I made a bad choice. I wanted to cheer for the earth from outside the earth...

But a little more. Just a little more. . .