And I said, βHere am I. Send me!" π
Confession:
I went quiet on you guys, I walled off and shut you out and for that I'm sorry. π I convinced myself no one cares anyways. I have struggled for a long time now with PTSD, anxiety and depression. You wouldn't even know it because I hide it so well π
I have lied and said I'm happy when I'm not so I didn't have to feel isolated. It's a constant internal battle to be honest about when I'm in pain because in the past it's been met with abandonment. I learned to perform so I wouldn't be alone. Even if I was in anguish inside you'd never know on the outside because I bury it. Even now as I type this I can feel that same fear that people will stop talking to me because I'm not posting only good things. I'm sorry I'm so fearful about sharing my negative emotions.
You kick ass!!! You don't wanna be alone and I wanna hide local. I think you rock, and hope you have a great day!!
And I said, βHere am I. Send me!" π
Love you Steph you have that fire in your belly that motivates me! Like a good drill sergeant, you don't do pity party, you do get your butt up and fight! π₯π₯π₯
I think YOU rock! ππͺ
Every time I get down makes me more motivated to win. I literally refuse to lose in Jesus name. Love all of ya'll.
Amen, me neither, I won't go down without a fight! πͺ
Right on. OUR heritage is winning. Thanks to Jesus.