Confession:
I went quiet on you guys, I walled off and shut you out and for that I'm sorry. 😔 I convinced myself no one cares anyways. I have struggled for a long time now with PTSD, anxiety and depression. You wouldn't even know it because I hide it so well 😅 I have lied and said I'm happy when I'm not so I didn't have to feel isolated. It's a constant internal battle to be honest about when I'm in pain because in the past it's been met with abandonment. I learned to perform so I wouldn't be alone. Even if I was in anguish inside you'd never know on the outside because I bury it. Even now as I type this I can feel that same fear that people will stop talking to me because I'm not posting only good things. I'm sorry I'm so fearful about sharing my negative emotions.
Heavenly Father
I pray that I may have the strength and courage to not only face my insecurities but to also shut them down. I pray that from now on, I may have the confidence to put myself out into the world so that I may share my talents and blessings with other people.
Love multiplies and increases as it is shared.
And this gives us great hope and courage.
Thank you for giving me the strength and courage to face my fears.
Thank you Lord for giving me Your hope and love.
Lord protect my heart, mind and soul from the enemy.
Lord, I know I will mount up on wings as an eagle and soar high.
I lift up this prayer to You, In Jesus Name, Amen.
