Confession:
I went quiet on you guys, I walled off and shut you out and for that I'm sorry. 😔 I convinced myself no one cares anyways. I have struggled for a long time now with PTSD, anxiety and depression. You wouldn't even know it because I hide it so well 😅 I have lied and said I'm happy when I'm not so I didn't have to feel isolated. It's a constant internal battle to be honest about when I'm in pain because in the past it's been met with abandonment. I learned to perform so I wouldn't be alone. Even if I was in anguish inside you'd never know on the outside because I bury it. Even now as I type this I can feel that same fear that people will stop talking to me because I'm not posting only good things. I'm sorry I'm so fearful about sharing my negative emotions.

❤️r🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏you definitely are not alone or the only one suffering with this wretched illness, or the multitude of illnesses of the mind, we are all so acutely affected by stress nowadays, born out a lot of the time due to monetary reasons, being the root cause, and yet we are still being told to hold the line, to sit down & enjoy the popcorn, by now its irratating, & many are severely struggling, lost their business or severely affected by the lockdowns, lost homes & family members, we are being left to support each other, our NHS is at breaking point, infact failing, people are dyeing waiting in a&e, or being sent home, we can't get a GP appointment, we are having to support each other but many are pissed off for many reasons, energy prices for instance, I'm sorry I can't hold your hands to support you, but you are in my thoughts & many like you Patriot