For some strange reason, I still expect that everyone will see how blatant this fraud is...and a part of me grieves the asleep people surrounding me.

Is it better to let go and have no emotion over the sleeping masses, or to feel nothing toward them? Makes me feel as if my humanity is taking a back seat.

Maybe I'm a coward, I keep my mouth shut to keep the peace. I'm not ready to have my family hate me. They already think I am a conspiracy nut. I don't know if I could deal with outright hatred.